Alright now, thank you all who actually read my blog that I just recently posted, but the thing that I posted about has officially been fixed!!! It was all a misunderstanding on my part. :) This is one of the things that I really hate about long distance relationships, I start to worry, and it's not that I don't trust him! I do trust him, and if I didn't then he would know. First of all, I wouldn't even be thinking about being in a long term relationship with him because if I can't trust him to not cheat on me when he's across the Atlantic OCEAN then I DEFINITELY would NOT be able to trust him to not cheat on me in a relationship!! That's just common sense, like, no. Don't do it. But, i feel like I screwed up... I know it's not all going to be rainbows and sunshine and we have no fights, because if we have no fights then there is something definitely wrong with our relationship and we should not be in it. Fights, to an extent, are healthy for a growing relationship. You learn more about each other quicker and more in-depth than you possibly would have by not having a fight. When you don't have a fight then you don't know what ticks the other person off therefore you still do it and that just causes unwanted, and unnecessary, tension between the two of you and therefore causes your relationship to fall apart quicker, but if you two actually care for each other you will both (no matter how big the fight or what it was about) try to fix it and make amends with one another so that you can continue to be in a meaningful relationship. Like, for me, I am moody, and I am emotional, and I have a tendency to over think things and then not know how to express my feelings in a way that is healthy for anybody. The only people that have actually learned when to take me seriously and when to not would be my best friend Jamie and my father, but then again, sometimes even my own father doesn't understand me and how I feel, but most of the time he's right on the dot. I don't know to be honest with you.... Sometimes I feel like I can do this whole relationship thing, but then again sometimes I feel like I am just not cut out for it, or too broken to do it. What I want in a man is really hard to find nowadays, like EXTREMELY hard to find. I want someone who is generous and nice and sweet and caring and adventurous and not afraid to go out of his limits and do things that might make him uncomfortable like dancing, or singing, or being weird with me out in public when I get into a fit and I start bouncing all over the place really happily and my mouth starts running at, like, 10 bagILLION miles per hour!!I will admit that he is everything that I have ever thought that my own personal 'Prince Charming' would turn out to be and I don't want to lose that! I don't want to lose the only guy that I have actually fallen for head over heels for all the right reasons, or so it feels. I want to know that I'm doing these things for the right reasons and everything that he has done, and all the tests that I have given him over the course of these few weeks that we have known each other, have lead me to the conclusion that I have FINALLY met the one after so many duds, and I know that you guys who read this are all like "Ugh Amanda, stop posting blogs about your troubles and drama no one wants to hear that!" Well, I'm sorry, but I have to get this off my chest, and honestly I'm glad that you guys who do read them are actually taking the time to read them. It lets me know that somewhere out there somebody cares about this stuff, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart thank you for listening to my rambles and constant problems. I promise that I will try and be less irritating with my blogs from now on. I think the next one I'll do about me and my life goals.... :P It all depends on what's in my heart and what pops into my head the next time I feel like making a blog, or in my case, a short story. :) I love you all!